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| Wednesday, December 12th, 2007 | | 12:12 am |
"taking chances to make a change"
it was me and Jay's 6 month anniversary yesterday. he surprised me by unexpectedly driving up to see me, getting me flowers and taking me out to dinner. i'm such a sucker for romantics. this romantic boy in particular... my finals are going good. done with 4 outta 5 but i'm stuck here until thursday night. my tests in world civ and sociology were manageable. my photo final wasn't nearly as stirring as i wanted it to be. "rats desert a sinking ship" was the quote placed next to a photo of departing students diving off a chester college "raft". (this school is a joke, summer camp really) my painting teacher told me "it was a pleasure having you in class, expect a good grade." video i'm expecting the same reaction. on a weird note, my mom won tickets to the superbowl... i'm back in boston for about month starting on the 15th? i'll be social, i promise. | | Monday, July 30th, 2007 | | 1:59 pm |
"i speak what i see"
"...and I've screamed them into sunsets that echo in earthquakes" Life has been excellent, far above average. shows and shakespeare. movies and motorcycle rides. ArtBea[s]t and making beats to confuse people who pick me up hitch hiking. watching sunsets over the ocean on the west and east coasts. falling in love and being loved. meeting new friends, bumping into old friends, and catching up with people at just the right time. making art, making love, and progressively getting better. reading and discussing. advising and rewards. discovering, exploring, and learning. i am so lucky. was summer always this good? speaking of lucky... i'm leaving for Australia on weds and will be there for 3 weeks. just figure i give everyone a heads up. i miss you all already! | | Tuesday, April 17th, 2007 | | 9:21 am |
"and i hope you die, i hope we both die"
Paul and I hit a shifting point yesterday. i'll spare you the details we're probably "both at fault, both to blame" (though it's hard to see if i went wrong with no space to step away). It's left me questioning if i'm making the right decisions. am i letting him avoid the situtaion or am i giving him space? am i provoking harsh words or is he trying to hurt me? does he love me because he does or out of habit? but mostly i'm wondering do i deserve this? and should i tolerate this? i want things to resolve, i want him to come back to me and miracleously want to communicate in eloquent words without blame or raised voices. i want these months of not-knowing that have piled ontop of eachother to lead up to this snapping point become times of learning and teaching. i want these weeks of stress to dissolve away into growth. he talks too little so i am forced to talk too much, he's sick of my voice. or maybe i dont want that, i just think i do because it's nice to have somebody to go to on campus. we'll figure it out though, hopefully. but all i can do now is wait. "I am drowning. There is no sign of land. You are coming down with me, hand in unlovable hand. And I hope you die, I hope we both die." | | Thursday, December 21st, 2006 | | 4:13 pm |
"i'm spinning in the next room, slurring along to my isolation at the top of my lungs"
"he talks revolution for about an hour, without using any verbs" Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains is playing January 5th at a basement show in Allston. "i'm not sure what i want you to say to me, but i know the look on your face that i want to see." This is their LAST show in Boston, this is their departing tour. "i'm not you and that's good enough for me" I encourage and openly invite anyone and everyone to come and share this farewell concert with me. "i can't tell what question you're asking, i dont care because no is my answer" JHaFT is one of my favriote bands. i would love if you came to see them, and i think you would love it too. "i dont care that you dont care that i dont care, the only card game i know is strip solitare. if home is where the heart is then i got evicted this week." Please PLEASE come to their last local show. i'm giving you a lot of notice so you can set time aside. you'll enjoy it, i can share this magical experience with you, you'll be supporting a great (soon-to-end) band, and it will be wicked fun. Call me for more info or go to their myspace page for the time and address. All of the lyrics are from one of their songs "the politics of..." | | Friday, November 3rd, 2006 | | 4:47 pm |
| | Monday, July 31st, 2006 | | 12:05 pm |
"we live in a beautiful world, yeah we do yeah we do"
life has been fantastic. like asher's newest song "it's pop-y enough to dance to but still has real intensity" i've been seeing the most surrealy beautiful sunsets [and lightning strikes and trees and fields and rivers and oceans and buildings], have been meeting the most infinitely interesting people, i've been having wonderful conversation, and have been finding myself through everyone else. i've been feeling whole and happy and free and true, so besides from a few hours where i felt horribly unattractive, i've been feeling wonderful. i hope everyone undertsands and feels that life and everything in it is indeed beautiful. | | Monday, July 3rd, 2006 | | 8:35 am |
"she's the sorta girl who would go change her name after you got it tattooed on your chest"
so i dyed my hair red a little while ago wanting a change and it seems since that change has been following me around. i also got my lip periced (twice cuz ther was an error the first time) while Bergie held my hand and Rachel gallently tried not to vomit as blood dripped down my face. i've been hanging out in the pit alot, i've been meeting lots of people, i've been haveing bunches of fun, and i've been having varrious strange (but good!) conicidences that i've been taking as signs that something is watching out for me. um i did want to make a big long update beacuse lots of interesting stuff has been happening but i really rather not now, kinda like that guy who didn't take a camera to antartica so he could just soak it all in, but not that extreme. everybody have an amzing 4th! and if yo find yourself with nothing to do that day, call me and i'll hook you up with plans. love! lots of it! to all! "she's 17 but she says she's 24 and she's all yours" | | Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006 | | 9:43 am |
"You will be fine."
"I want to have the same dream again, The one where I wake up and I'm alive. My eyes are woken up with pure sunlight. I'm the first to know." Life has been eventful, so i'll unfairly limit it to the highlights. I went to Brattleboro Fest in VT which was amazing. I hung out with Tree, which i needed to do in the worst of ways. He brings me back to earth, he grounds me, he thrills me, makes me excited to live again. He said he had really needed to see me too; i'm not sure if i believe him but it still made me feel good. I also saw Andrew, Geo, and Kasey there which was an awesome surprise. Also saw Zach there and met more people, oh i went up there with Ivan. I played kickball, and hacky sack, and listened to awesome bands, and camped by the river, and was just surrounded by good stories and interesting people, which made it that much harder to go back to Chester. But i was done a few days after that. On the sunday after the trip i spent all day with Ivan and it was a wonderful bonding experience. I haven't laughed that hard in a while. I went to UMD this past weekend, which was also wonderful. a lot of people had left but there was still never a dull moment. it was just really nice to see people before they left. Mattie even came back to campus for a night to hang out. we (me, him, Devin and Kyle) watched the sun rise at horsenecks which was beautiful. we literally watched the sun come up over the horizion. it was a wonderful way to greet the day. today i'm seeing Bergie, have an interview and my first belly dancing lesson tomorrow, some concerts coming up, Zach's graduation coming up. looks like a good start to summer. "My dearest friends, Even if your hope has burned with time, Anything that's dead shall be re-grown." | | Monday, April 17th, 2006 | | 1:10 pm |
"do you remember what the skies were like when you were young?"
i've been busy, kinda. shows (big d, catch 22, mustard plug etc at avalon, 2 shows at matties, bread and roses + some hardcore bands at 45 mt aubrun, some shows in NH and prob more in boston as well that i forgot), a good amount of work (i'm out of school 5/9). my photo final project isn't coming out as well as i want it to which has been very stressful, mostly cuz it could be coming out amazing but i keep hitting walls. the leftover crack show was cancelled, shot at matties the pictures were underexposed, got faster film but someone punched out a light at the next show so the pictures were still underexposed, overdeloping the film didn't help and made the pictures that did come out, came out very contrasty. yeah school is still a drag and not making any good art is making it drag even more. i spent thursday night- sunday afternoon in Nashua. my folks met Ivan sunday afternoon, they liked him, which is good. we helped Nelson move into Ivan's place on sat. went to fun world with Nelson. fell for Ivan even more. i met a really nice cat outside the photo barn today. it came right up to me and rubbed its face against my hand. i sat down and it circled me and was enthusastic about me petting it. its fur felt really nice rubbing across my palm. it had no collar and looked like a peice of its fur had been shaved off. I left and it followed me; i kept walking and it stopped following. (which i took as a metaphor for life) i feel pretty low but my images and ideas class got cancelled for tonight and i get to see Ivan tomorrow and Boston on friday, so i should be okay. everyone enjoy themselves, it's spring afterall! "they went on forever..." | | Sunday, March 12th, 2006 | | 11:48 am |
"I just love the way she tastes"
  So been up to lots of good stuff. since tuesday night me and Ivan are officially together. we found a dirt road to nowhere and pulled over and looked at the stars. the weather has been really good. saw a basement show in Chester on friday, 6:37 was the best set i thought, black bear, daniel striped tiger, death to tyrants and l'antietam also played. when we (John and I) got out of the show at 11 it was still warm out despite the sun being down for hours, like 50 degrees, we rode back to school with the windows down. when back at school we laid and looked at the stars. then i met up with Ivan we hung out here for a little bit then to his place. we woke up to another warm beautiful day. we got in a minor car accident back to school. no one was hurt but he was pretty stressed cuz it was his first accident and he fucked up the guys bumper and messed up the front of his car pretty good as well. Nick did a(n almost) nude photo shoot of us and the photos came out BEAUTIFULLY. the ones above are from that. uh.. i really dunno what else to say, life is good, everyone enjoy the weather. "She dyed her hair black with red streaks Her kinda life is the one that I seek She’s the girl that makes my knees weak She's my punk rock girlfriend She punched that guy right in the face Her parents think she is a fucking disgrace I just love the way that she tastes She's my punk rock girlfriend (Chorus) I got a punk rock girlfriend I hear her voice inside my head She pierced her tongue just for me My rocker chick she’s gonna be I got a punk rock girlfriend She spit right at the cop When he pulled her over for a routine stop Didn't care for what he thought Ya she's my punk rock girlfriend She spent two nights in jail Before I went and paid her bail But really she didn't care Cause she's my punk rock girlfriend (Chorus) I got a punk rock girlfriend I hear her voice inside my head She pierced her tongue just for me My rocker chick she’s gonna be I got a punk rock girlfriend We broke into the punk concert When I had a security shirt Didn't believe it was gonna work Ya my punk rock girlfriend Rocking out in the mosh pit Never ever ever gonna quit Got to meet the band no bullshit With my punk rock girlfriend (Chorus) I got a punk rock girlfriend I hear her voice inside my head She pierced her tongue just for me My rocker chick she’s gonna be I got a punk rock girlfriend I hear her voice inside my head She pierced her tongue just for me My rocker chick she’s gonna be I got a punk rock girlfriend" | | Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006 | | 9:14 pm |
"gorgeous green eyes smiling"
so this weekend was fun. hung out with Kevin for a bunch of days. saw a basement show in Concord. Captain, My Captain, which is this cool NJ folk-punk band was the musical highlight. Social highlight: being complimented for my moshing (what else do i get off to? lol) ( oh! and i like a boy... ) | | Friday, February 17th, 2006 | | 1:12 pm |
"this beat is twenty times slower than the speed of sound"
went to a goth night at this little club last night. saw some commuters getting gothed out, asked what they were doing, getting ready to go to a new goth night, i asked if i could tag along, they said yes, i ran back to the dorm and got ready in under 10 mins. it was fun, small showout but the staff was really cool, people were very laid back, and i got to dance. some numbers were exchanged, and fun was had. the power went out in chester today, and my laundry didn't completely dry, but that is the worst of my woes, so i'm in really good shape. everyone enjoy your weekend. ps- i think io forgot to mention, Zach left for Hawaii and i miss him a bunch already. | | Thursday, February 16th, 2006 | | 1:06 am |
"maybe we could be lovers once in a while"
stuff has been good. i've been in a good mind set. enjoying what's around me, even the cold. i've been finding it easier to laugh and i've been finding myself with an almost constant smile. Thank you for this smile, Jack... cookiebaro n: ahhh I love the commercial for skittles where the kid replaces his hands with electric eggbeaters spiffysheep20: hahahhaha spiffysheep20: that was the oddest thing to hear you say you love cookiebaro n: I just cant help but admire how motivated a person would have to be to remove their own hands and replace them with kitchen appliances i hope everyone enjoyed their valentines day and is dreaming sweetly now. | | Monday, February 6th, 2006 | | 1:36 pm |
"29. tired of always fucking things up"
i'm listening to Yo La Tengo and wallowing in my distaste. stuff has been going good. went to Boston for the weekend, saw a show, took pictures, danced, had 2 boys fall for me, reminded one why he fell in the first place, and fell in love with the city all over again. now i feel an emptiness. 45 mins into when i was back at school, i felt bored. i only watched the first quarter of the superbowl, i think more kids watched the power rangers movie than who were watching the game. my photos weren't coming out well this morning. i scratched a negative. and now sitting in my dorm i feel, in my chest, like i'm on the verge of tears but my eyes stay dry and my face remains expressionless. and i know exactly what it's from but i don't know how to say it or if i should say it. "it's not you" he said. but it is. "Although you don't believe me you're strong. Darkness always turns into the Dawn. And you won't even remember this for long... When it ends alright." | | Sunday, January 22nd, 2006 | | 6:34 pm |
"i lite dogs on fire, and when i say dogs, i mean babies"
I'm at Chester College of NE in NH now in case anyone had been wondering. i was home this weekend though. met a cool kid on the bus to Boston, Henry. met another kid, Dave, who knows the Cliches too. saw a show in a basement in Concord with Jack. saw negative insight, on the edge, and discord Hit my head on the ceiling while being thrown up in the air, high fives and apologies all around. went back to boston and crashed on Jack's dorm couch. sat- errands and then show in the evenin'. i forget the first band that played but the lineup after that was fruit salad, ALAWALWAD, BSOM, die young (?, awesome Houston band), and bones brigade. excellent show. i left a little after Bones brigade's smoke machine set of the fire alarm. lots of tufts kids wh lived in miller looked pissed but clueless. saw Antonia, Marissa and Taylor, yeah, good, good show. been going to lots of shows, i can't remember all of them. i do remember- lethal eraction, negative insight, superpower, discord, +more and the central sq VFW, neptune,volcano suns +more at the middle east upstairs, math the band, b for brontosaurus, +more at the middle east upstairs, scholar, asher at the all asia, evan greer, project citizen, benny mendez +more at 45 mt. auburn, not in that order. chester has been okay. been very productive, there's really nothing to do BUT be productive. i got into photo II, my first project id due weds. well, i'm prob. boring you as i am boring myself. hope ya'lls havin' fun. | | Thursday, January 19th, 2006 | | 5:13 pm |
| | Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 | | 2:55 pm |
i got a digital camera for x-mas, can you tell?
been up to fun stuff, family stuff. chilled with Rory Zach and Lee we had a sleepover at my house. chilled with Jay, Tara, Aaron, Coleen, whopped ass in DefJam. show tonight, show tomorrw night. (i just wanted to post photos)  aw...andrew and zach love eachother ( not for those with slow computers )**edit- damn! damn! damn! why are thes so small? i don't want to deal with this right now, i'll fix it later, i take back the slow computer thing** ***EDIT TWO- the pictures are bigger. yay!*** | | Friday, December 23rd, 2005 | | 3:01 pm |
"we're all dying everyday...
and the ties are all in place so you can feel free and it wont take much to taste liberation" lets see, what has been up. saw the regen. show, fruit salad put on a sick set. disaster strikes was pretty good. bread and roses was awesome as always but the crowd was pretty boring. crashed at Rory's that night with Andrew and Zach. saw Kong with Bergie, chilled with Michelle in Eastie. saw scholar on the 21st. they were SO good, they just gave out so much energy and the crowd responded really well. they sold a bunch of cds and got paid for the gig so they were siked. met this cool kid-Lee. crashed at Jon and Nick's. went contra dancing last night FINALLY. it was sooooo much fun, i wish i got my shit together and went in the summer. but needless to say i will be going again and yous should come with me. as Zach said they're very friendly to beginers and you get to swing around and do cool dances and meet cool people and listen to cool music and and... you get my point. everyone have a good holiday! "when was the last time you let yourself go and threw your inhibiations out the door or REMEMBERED YOUR FIRST KISS AND THE FEARS THAT CAME WITH IT the liberation could have lasted forever... do you sing with all your heart or pour out your soul or danced the night away just like there's no tomorrow... i'm gonna live everyday like i could die tomorrow and it would be okay" | | Monday, December 19th, 2005 | | 4:15 pm |
"but I won't give up gravity or tides or anything for you
so tonight's just loneliness and emptiness as I'm slowly going out of tune" igot accepted into Chester college again with the same $3,600 scholarship. i may be leaving Boston again sooner than i thought. classes for the spring start 1/17. what i'm going to do is still unsure, but this could be a really great opertunity (and cheaper than UMD too). we'll see what happens. this only means we should hang out sooner than later. "so many words just make me confused... painting myself blue to hide the bruise" | | Saturday, December 17th, 2005 | | 10:59 am |
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